She has lost a few pounds. I never knew how much this affected things with her confidence, as in just a few pounds. I understand 50 pounds. But I'm a guy and we can fluctuate 10 pounds in a week, we don't think about it much. She has always been in shape, sexy, and I would say thin. But while a few pounds on me I would not even notice, she can be devastated by it. She and other women keep it all to themselves of course, but I notice how it affects her. I see how it affects her to have a guy check her out, or in the case of her not being confident, how it affects her to NOT be checked out. 'The Gaze of Men' is something reserved for the sexually attractive and is a fleeting thing, age finally overtakes things and women slowly slip into what more prudent woman would call 'Maturity'.. Lol, this is quite interesting in many cases as so many woman quietly miss the 'gaze' and even have long term regrets of losing it. Even if they never would have taken an offer of something more from a man that obviously found her quite attractive, just knowing that she 'still has it' is enough to brighten her week or more. This stuff is way more powerful than I can write about in a paragraph and yet is all 'under the table'. As in, women will run these thoughts through their mind, but most of the time we will not hear much about it.
I mention this in prelude because of how I feel this is a great equalizer for women if they ever wanted to have fun with it. As strong and as powerful as men are, there will always be one thing they can't just take by sheer will, a woman allowing and desiring his advances. This has always caused problems for men that could not handle that fact, as history has told many stories of men trying to take what is otherwise not given to them. But for sane men, they are bound by a woman's desire for them or not for them as any case may be. Their strength and powerful will is completely held in check by even the softest touch of a woman's hand or the slight unobstructed view of her naked body. This is very real power and control. In the text of my life, if she only knew how powerful she was....
That being said, 'The Friend' has shot her a recent text of him wanting a picture of her in a see through top. She responded with I will send one shortly. Then texted me and said that she has been thinking of him lately. That is the first thing I have heard from her in a long long while that had anything to do with the hotwife life.
I still continue to talk to a couple guys on Ashley Madison, cool cool guys. Lots of insight of things. Last I wrote was how they explained why I am so into seeing her getting attention from another guy. I am still planning on writing about it, just have not found the time. But I do know its powerful and the only way I have found to fight it is to just go solo on a regular basis to knock down the extreme lustful thoughts to something more manage day to day.