Sunday, June 19, 2011

Porn, hot scenarios, and at least I know what I like.

In general, in the spoken public's mentality, porn only does harm to the community and to the family makeup.  In certain circumstances, I agree, especially for those that are more prone to addictions.  Experts say if it interferes with your day to day living, then you probably have a problem.  This is obviously different for each person and for each situation as your partner or family may be more open minded or non tolerant of such things.  Ever heard porn doing good for someone?  Me.

For the hurtful example, my last relationship ended, thankfully, and one of the things she would say was a problem was my surfing of porn on the internet.  I find this quite funny, since I barely surfed for any at all, never kept any adult magazines in the house and generally just left it alone.  Not entirely, and certainly not when she was not putting out and being a bitch for months at a time.  Fuck that, I am going to stroke one out and if I needed material to do so then so be it.  But in this relationship, I have def surfed for more, have quite a large collection of pics and vids saved on my hard drives, yet it really doesn't take much of my time up each day or every other couple days.  My wonderful woman is very open minded and doesn't scold me for doing so like I know happens in a lot of other relationships/families.  Our relationship is not hurt by it, in fact, we have looked at a lot of porn together and it gets her worked up big time.  Totally opposite of my previous relationship.

As a result, I live a much more stress free life.  I am not always looking over my shoulder to hide something I 'shouldn't be looking at' bullshit.  What has now occurred is that I am much more free to be myself and not worry of my woman being intimated by porn stars, my sex drive stays higher all the time and I actually focus on her more and hunt her down as the true source of all my pleasure. Most women would feel that they are being replaced or have to live up to something that they can never bee.  I am sure that this causes depression in women that stay quiet about it or don't have great communication skill with their mate so even if they wanted to talk about it, it comes out wrong and ends in a fight.  I can totally understand this. I know this is very hurtful, but for a lot of reasons that have to do with being raised and just not learning good skills on connecting with your mate.

My situation is probably a little unique to most.  Its hard to put in words but I am going to try and I think I understand it pretty well now.  Here it is in a nutshell.  My woman is very lucky.  Instead of her man not understanding what turns him on, her man does.  I know after many years of looking at porn what really turns me on, physically, about a woman's body.  And she is it.  She found the one guy that absolutely worships her body.  Not 90%, not 99%, you get the idea.  Once I met her and got to know her and realized that emotionally she was the woman I wanted to spend the rest of my life with, I then saw her naked body and that was it.  I found the ultimate combination of attraction in a woman.   I have read that a man needs to be loved physically before he can love emotionally.  A woman needs to be loved emotionally before she can love physically.  I think we nailed it.

She can actually thank porn for that.  No kidding.  After all that I have seen in porn and really fucking hot chicks, stand them all in a line and let me choose one that turns me on the most and my woman is it.  Only because I have 'checked out' so many woman is this even possible for her to be in this place in my mind.

Like many couples, what about the man not knowing 100% what sets him off?  What triggers things in him that makes him go absolutely fucking berserk that he must fuck her, must claim her.  To be honest, we all know what happens when the guy quits chasing the woman.  That's it, nada, all done, the fat lady is singing.  Its not even her fault, the relationship is ending at this point, time is all that is keeping the final separation from happening.

He just doesn't know what it is that needs to be triggered in him and he will search, even though he is with his supposed soul mate.  Worse, he then half chases her instead of letting her go.  Worse thing ever, he is faking it, maybe they have a child together, maybe one of many reasons men quit pursuing their woman, what ever it is, that is the biggest shame as he is actually wasting both their lives.  Her true soul mate is out there, looking for her, and this dip shit has her all tied up and doing his bidding each day as she slips into depression and half smiles.  Maybe he is even cheating on her.  Fucking asshole, really, think how far this really fucks up things.  Years wasted.  What could be worse then years wasted? Anybody? Life pulled from a person in which we only have so much to begin with.  What is more valuable and therefore what is more damaging in the long run? Everything can be fixed, made better, improved, with time, and this poor woman now has less because of this mans inability to know what he wants.

Am I so different?  Is this something new? No, its not new, belly dancers come to mind.  Seriously.  Yes, belly dancers.  I say it was the first kind of porn that can be traced back over 6000 years.  Google it.  Take a young and impressionable man and let him watch some good belly dancers way back when.  It would not take long before he discovered some things about himself, about what truly gets his heart racing, about the movements of the female body that make him dream of things.  You think I'm stretching a little? Hell, I even get a little mesmerized when I see a belly dancer doing her thing, gyrating her hips in a nice slow circle.  As if she was sitting on my lap and circling around on my cock.  I would not last long and I am sure there were some women back in the day that make modern belly dancers look like girl scouts on Easter Sunday. 

I am sure there are many other ways men discovered things they liked back then, belly dancers are just low fruit for me to see right off the bat, hopefully it worked for them and they go to chasing the right woman for them.  Lucky girl she would be if he found her.  If he is true to himself, he will never stop chasing her.

I did it.  And now, I am mesmerized and literally stunned by euphoric pleasure by seeing my woman in hot scenarios, ones that all the creative porn directors have had fun with doing their thing with their porn stars in the past and soon to happen in the future.  Thanks to them, they opened up a whole new world of creativity.  Where I might have run out of ideas, there is not a shortage of scenarios to run through my mind that they have thrown out there that really get me going.  The 'photo shoot' scenario that I have briefly talked about on a previous post is one, WAY TO FUCKING HOT, this one is mind blowing for me.  I can only hope to do more in the future.  More hot scenarios include seeing her pleasure a big cocked alpha, getting that big cock hard by her hot body.  Seeing her excite him and get him moving, his own instincts being brought alive by her body and how she moves.  Seeing him awaken and become slightly dominate as he moves to claim her, his way.  As time passes, he is over taken by her presence and what she does to him that he is compelled instinctively to over power her gently as he pulls her into his bubble , exciting her, releasing her. In the midst of it all he takes what he needs from her. She only gets turned on by a man getting off on her, creating quite a view from my seat as they both build to taking and giving and feeding off of each others pleasure.  My video camera glows from capturing such scorching hot stuff on it, at least it would if it could as I have some of these moments captured already.  Just glimpses though, hopefully more to come..

I can go on and on, and you know what?  I will.  Along with some of my thoughts of her hookups in the past,  I am going to post what scenarios I think are really fucking hot, what really gets my crank turning.  Some we have already done and really need to be repeated as there will never be enough of those moments being the success they were.  Others we have not done, but who knows, maybe in the future we will be treated to things that blow my mind, might she treat me to such things.  Since I have seen so many hot scenes, I know the only true way to make them over the top.  No porn stars.  My woman.  Its not the porn star that makes me all hot, its my woman in a real scene with real orgasms, with real instincts coming alive.  I know what I like.  Hopefully I can put some together some time, maybe she wants to excite me, take me over the top to higher places I did not know could be reached.  Maybe she will learn what she likes of them too and we make some hot nights. What if we both liked the same things? Wow, things are going to get hot. Thanks for all the hot ideas Porn Directors!  Although I know they are a little jealous since our nights are real.....

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